FlAws && All.....tHiiS iis Me

Hmm ...liike have u evr juss wanted to go back iin time && change like one thing??..shit thats how ii feel rite now, like the past is such a crazii thing, its all our memories, its the shit that we willl always rememburr riite? so Liike wat happens wen u cant let thee past go?? Thats mah problem ii need to learn how to forgive && forget (( BUT)) ii cant..like ii always thought if ii moved awayed met new ppl did diff shit id bee better but like ...thats not the case..idk..i guess ii juss haave issues ...my unc always told me if u wanna concur thee devil u gotta look him in thee eye..........so to all my inner imperfections here ii go...Lets Consider this my CoNFONTation:

• im SeLfish..Jealously is a disease && ii have iit
• Sometimes ii forget my own self worth...causin me to do foolish foolish things...
  
• iim InsecUre..Omg ii doubt myself constantly
  
• Grudges..ican hold a grudge forever...soo Not GooD
• Afriad of Change..i say im ready for a fresh start..but change scares me..

&& finally ii live in a fantasy...because my reality is so far from what ii feel it shouldbe mah damn daydreams is thee only place where everything is rite...

&& yea theres more but these are thee things im always lieing to myself about sO
ii Guess for me this was like my reality check..a way to vent ...a way to finally put my own self on blast ii guess...((sigh)) we all have issues...ii juss hope im one of the few who can address their "demons" head on && actually make POSITIVE changes..sheesh god knows iiM tryiin!! LOL
But iin thee end u gotta bee real to yourself beefore anybodii else && u gotta find yourself, Before u can look for another..so this is the first stop on the trip To fiindIng a BeTTeR me.....

*****love Always****
Mariie Raymond.

"Ur not setting a TREND your FOLLOWING a FAD"

So many ppl say that there "fashion junkies", "Fly", "addicted to fashion" But Most of the time the ppl who do all this talkin dont have the slightest clue what fashion rEalli iz..ii mean dont get me wrong there are people who study it and want to make it there life, && ii completely respect that but what ii have no respect for is those whom try to down play other ppl on what they see as fashionable or basically what they like. ii cant tell u how many times ii hear niggas talkin about how "fly" dey is when n actuality it comes down to the question what is fly? ii mean have u not realized that every nigga u see looks just like you...ur not setting a trend your following a fad, something that will soon die out && u like everybody else will juss have some thing to look back on && laugh at. What u wear should always express who u are, u shouldnt wear what u think other ppl wanna see, if u cant bee you then wtF! who do u wanna bee? Who really gives a fuck if "she" dont think u "Fly" enuff...and so wat if "he" not feelin yo "swagg" LOL WTF "swagg?" okay ii could have swore swagger is the way u carry yourself, a unique way of which u are presented, so riddle me this bloggers if u && yo nigga dress the same, act the same, & & talk the same..where is YOUR swagg at? But all im really tryin 2 say to ppl is bee who u are, i mean dont let peoples views and judgment depict who u are and what u wanna bee, Why follow the crowd all the fuckin time? && quit tryna stunt..if cant afford what yo nigga is wearin DONT BUY IT! becus if u gotta save up for something u only want because thats whats "in" my nigga u truly dont need it man...but to those of u who kno u have a "fashion" sense && will continue to do u, by all means DO YOU but dnt make other people feel inferior to u in thee process, stand out && bee who u are, no questions asked----> "In a time of Recession && Depression you need somebody with sum type of SELF EXPRESSION"-Kanye